Farewell for now...

I am the true vine, and My Father is the vinedresser. Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit He takes away; and every branch that bears fruit He prunes, that it may bear more fruit.

John 15:1-2, Orthodox Study Bible

Most assuredly, I say to you, unless one is born again, he cannot see the Kingdom of God.

John 3:3, Orthodox Study Bible

When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things.

I Corinthians 13:11, Orthodox Study Bible

The Lord has pruned me of many things over the seasons: not just sins, which I do not confess here, but my studies in mathematics, which were at times central to how I understood myself: in retrospect I don't see how my endeavors really edified others. I've also wanted to teach theology at a university or seminary, but that door remains closed, and that is probably for the better. Now it seems a door is being closed for my heavy involvement with technology and at least some of my writing: I'm not sure. And more.

I am looking with all my heart to enter Orthodox monasticism on Mount Athos. If I am able to become a monk, it is my hope to bid farewell to all that I am in the world, all of my many failures and many successes, and even friends and enemies--to be as a little child, and repent, spending what is left in the caterpillar stage of my mortal life to the hope of what I may be in the world to come, seeking a good answer before the Dread Judgment-seat of Christ. Other people do well enough living in the world, and marriage is blessed by God. However, I have had enough close calls spiritually to take up the assistance monasticism still offers while I still can. ("Better late than never!" applies to repentance, too!)

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Thank You and Farewell,
CJS Hayward